So much time has passed that I feel I have to expend some energy integrating back into the blog. A little blog foreplay... some wine and candle-light so the gin-soaked olive knows that I'm not just a user- landing here for a few minutes of instant gratification after weeks away...
Despite some truly lovely vacation time and visits from family and friends, life has been hectic and irksome. I've been swamped at work (which is kind of good as I like to be challenged) but the headaches -literally, not figuratively- have been brutal. When i was younger, my stress would always be in my gut: nausea, stomach pain, etc. But now, for some reason it has moved all into my head. I can be in the middle of a frustrating conversation and I will get searing pain through my skull. This does a few things to/for me: 1) It officially connects my headaches to mood, aggravation, and stress and therefore eliminates (or decreases) the time i spend thinking, "Maybe i ate something funny, maybe I'm dehydrated, maybe it's allergies," etc. 2) Makes me feel a little pathetic- GET OUT OF YOUR HEAD, M#THER-F#CKER!!! Life is too short!!! G*D-D#MN!!!#%&! Get a grip!!! ***This type of self-disapproval and reproach does little to improve the painful symptoms, by the way... 3) Makes me contemplate the word "Aneurysm" more than i ever did before. The thought "ANEURYSM" blazing in my brain is usually followed by the image of Red Foxx clutching his chest every day and shouting, "This is the big one, Elizabeth, I'm coming to join you." Luckily, the sitcom is part of my lexicon only as reinforcement that no one likes an overly dramatic complainer, i try to keep my concerns related to an ANEURYSM unspoken... Don't want the wife to hurt herself rolling her eyes at me every day. Yesterday, we were watching Gray's Anatomy with the fam and one of the lines of the interns was: "Why do I keep hitting myself in the head with a hammer? Because it feels so good when I stop." Web was like, "huh?" Kt and I looked at eachother and said, "hmmm... interesting point...i don'tknowwhowouldbehavelikethat, that'ssocrazy ....hmmm"
Gotta chill out.
Which in some ways means, gotta get back to the silly journaling associated with the blog.
To those of you who have let me know you miss my posts, especially those of you on the west coast... thanks for the encouragement, i love you more than you know!
And to the rest of you, there's some great stuff to follow: Vacation recap(s), photos of children who appear to be drinking beer, other random rambings, political rants, and unsolicited opinions... Don't worry, Mike, I've got some great new pics of Mac'adoodle... groan if you want- i know you can't look away :)
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